Friday, October 2, 2009
IUI #13 - Beta
While waiting for the call from the clinic on the results of my test, I debated whether I wanted to answer the phone or let it go to voicemail. A part of me just didn’t want to hear those dreaded three words “I am sorry…” Another part of me wanted to answer the phone and ask the coordinator for her opinion of whether I should try IUI again. The hours went by and there was no call. I knew that the later the call, it’s basically bad news.
Finally at 2:40 pm, the phone rang. I recognized the number on the call display and picked up the phone. After the polite greetings, the coordinator said “I am sorry blah blah blah.” Basically, all I heard were those three words. One would think that a person having heard those words over and over again would make a person less disappointed. Not so. It hurt less the first few times because I had more patience and I was younger. Now that I’ve heard it ten times already, and I’m in my third year of trying, it’s heartbreaking news. I’m glad that the coordinator was nice in her approach to delivering the bad news. At times like this, it probably sucks to be in her shoes.
Anyways, I’m supposed to call the secretary next week to see where I’m at on the hysteroscopy waiting list. If the wait is still long then we will decide on what to do in the interim. I hope to get a different drug if I am going to do another IUI. I have gotten pregnant once without drugs, once with Clomid and once with Femera. My body doesn’t seem to want to give me another baby with Femera. What a stubborn little bitch!
Thursday, October 1, 2009
On the way to work
IUI #13 - 10dpiui
I was hoping that all the pregnancy news that I’ve heard in these past weeks would be a sign that I’m next. Where the hell did the stork go? Did he suddenly run out of baby news when it came to me? What a tease!
I’m confused about what to do next. Should I continue with IUI? Should I stop IUI and wait to do IVF? Should I quit my job?
Unexplained infertility totally sucks ass!!!
Friday, September 4, 2009
IUI #12 - A Bust!!!
Monday, August 24, 2009
IUI #12 - CD18 and insemination day
Today I had my IUI #12 at around 9:45am. There is one large follicle (2.0cm) on the right side and a borderline follicle (1.5cm) on the left side. I know that ovulating naturally will only result in one mature follicle but I am hoping for a miracle.
The Beta test is scheduled to be on September 4th (a day right after our wedding anniversary). I will try to refrain from using the home pregnancy tests and wait for the blood test result. I hope that I can give my husband a sweet wedding anniversary present this year with a positive result.
Thursday, August 6, 2009
To do pgd or not to do pgd?
I stressed myself out today by debating in my head whether to do pgd or not. I have searched the topic on google and bing – “how accurate is pgd”, “limitations of pgd” and “pros and cons of pgd”. From what I’ve read, studies show pregnancy and miscarriage rates are lower with pgd. The latter is beneficial to me but if it lowers my chances of getting pregnant, then what good will the reduction in miscarriage rate do for me? Considering that I was able to get pregnant through IUI (6% success rate), will I be lucky enough to also get pregnant through the reduced success rate of IVF with pgd? Or is my luck running out since it took me five tries last year to get pregnant (even though it ended in miscarriage)?
Another concern I have is false negatives and false positives from the pgd results. What if the embryos were normal but the test results come back saying they are abnormal and I can't get any transfers? What if the normal embryos were traumatized by the pgd biopsy that it can't develop normally? Am I willing to take the risks? Or is this all just luck? Anybody know where I can get a magic lamp that will grant me just one wish?
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Our next step...
Thursday, July 9, 2009
IUI #11 - The verdict is in
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
IUI #11 - 11 days past IUI
I finally decided to wake up and actually take the hpt. I had bought the Clearblue easy to read test. I wasn’t fully awake so I had problems putting the stick into the stream. As I waited for the test result, there was a part of me that didn’t really want to know yet. Another part of me wanted to know so I can decide what to do next if it’s negative. It was a really long 3 minute wait. When the result of “not pregnant” came out, I had to take a second look to make sure. A part of me thought this time would work. I crawled back into bed for a little bit.
The real confirmation is tomorrow when I go in for my blood test.
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
IUI #11 - 3 Days Past IUI
Saturday, June 27, 2009
IUI #11 - Insemination Day
Friday, June 26, 2009
IUI #11 - CD12 Second Day of Monitoring
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
IUI #11 - CD 11 First Day of Monitoring
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
IUI #11 - CD3 Full Bladder Ultrasound
I never understood why I had to go in with a full bladder when afterwards; they always do a transvaginal ultrasound. This time, I asked the lab technician. According to the lab technician, the full bladder ultrasound gives her a better view of the pelvic area, the ability to detect large cysts and possibly see things that might be missed by the transvaginal ultrasound. Okay, good enough for me.
I was told that I don’t need to have a really full bladder because it makes my uterus tilt and as a result, not much can be seen. Phew, that is good news for me.
I got the green light to start Femera today.